contemplating

after wat happen last nite..

i keep asking myself this..

so i reallie want to spend the rest of my life with this kind of man..

wat will happen if he did that to me..

feel like spending time together, but end up him using the comp and me watching the tv..does that reallie count as spending time together. to most guys, yes.. but to 99.9% of the gals. no.

wat i want is more than these.. carn we just hold each others' hands.. lie in each other's arms.. watching the same screen.. computer screen tv screen together at the same time..

all i can is to dream.. cos in real life, they dun happen.. wat i dream of and fantasise abt will never come true.