pieces of shits

i choose to go for retail therapy with my hunny..instead of crying myself out until my eyes become swollen at home..hurs.

i remember that i once said that no matter wat u choose.u must be happy with ur decision..but right now, im afraid i carn even do that myself. had made a decision a few weeks back..and now i regret it..

it was so enjoyable last time. i do look forward to it to some extent. but right now. im kinda dreading it. and regret my decision. and those that i used to enjoy. were things that are dampening my mood.

what has happened.?the only constant thing in life is change. how true is that. and i guess its my fault too. for not putting in enough effort. for not working hard enough. i carn blame others. i only have myself to blame. but yet, when im down and out and maybe feel out of place, and putting in some effort, who is there to appreciate? who is there to make an effort with me too? nobody. now.

oh wells. time to reflect on myself.

on a happier note. im working and means i have money. more money and dun have to fret during the sem. hurray. and gss is coming.

but i dun have enough money to spend on so many things.

time to make a shopping list and then shortlist the things i want to buy. hurhur