kill me please

bahsss just wanted to go home..luckily never reallie eat much during lunch.only macaroni.2nd marcaroni in 2 days.wow.maybe i shld just stick to it.and not anyhow eat.bahs yeah so nothing to puke out.just air.kns.damn xin ku.doesnt help that im stil having the cramp-ish feeling rom food poisoning..

and i reallie wanted to just lie down on the floor and die.damn painful lar.why do i always get these kind of cramps.sighs.so i strolled briskly back home from interchange seeing white spots in front of me.and just squat down in the lift.cldnt care much.and the bus seems like it took eternity to go home.and when i reached home,i rushed for the toilet and just wanted to stay in there.but cannot.starting to sweat and puking air.so have to come out for some fresh air and not air from my stomach.hmm felt better,at least so do faint-ish.went to fill bottle with warm water.err no hot.took the fan frm sis room and just lie down with the hot bottle at my abs.hmm zzzzzzzzz.wake up feel much better.

bahs and i totally wasted the whole day after my paper doing nothing productive.sighs.and its the exam period!this totally sucks.

hurs maybe poks im right.i just want attention.maybe my aunt was right.i want someone to pour love and concern over me.yes they are right,in some sense.i like my freedom at times=) but it doesnt help that little dragon is kinda 'other things come first,never gf' and thos things,thou never the same,just seems never ending.and i wld be left alone.in times of sickness and uncomfort and confusion and depression and desperation.sighs

yeah.2 more to go.whee.now have to study.cos last 2 never touch at all before today.wow.

way to go peeps =)