dear blog..
heys my dearest blog..hmm im sorry for the previous sad blog..
not that everyone came to tok to me..thanks xiaohui for asking..but im ok..yeap..
im reallie ok..
yah so todae logic paper like that lors..so its like left 15mins to the end, hehs i was still saying that maybe i could leave after 1hour..wahaha but i realise hmm not that easy..haha..yeap as i was saying left 15mins that time,suddenly i realise that i dunno myself anymore..im not the peiying i used to be,before everything happened in 2004..wow that was such a long time ago..and recently too many things have happened,which just worsen everything..maybe when it just happened,i was in a slight depression..described as hiding in the room and not tokking to anyone..but as time goes by,as more pple lend their support,i began to walk out slowly and tok more..but even up to now,i still dun reallie like to tok that much..
i rmb last time pple confide in me and i just give suggestion or simply just lend a listening ear..but now,i keep wallowing in self pity..feeling depressed and sad over small nitty gritty things..where has the cheerful peiying gone to??
i noe that ive changed..for the worse..and i only realise it until now..ive become more insensitive, more selfish, inconsiderate..those of which that i used to detest pple with these qualities..but now that ive developed into such a horrible person, maybe its karma..
with the year coming to a close, a bad year indeed..deaths after deaths..maybe its reallie the time when pple grow up to the age that we have to face such harsh reality which we did not encounter when we were young..with the 5dboaters who died while in cambodia representing the country,the death toll has easily gone up to above 10..which was usually 0 or 1 per year to me..sighs..
family and friends are reallie impt to me..maybe its time that i start to reconnect with them and show more care and concern to make up the time when ive been ignorant and selfish and living in my own world,wallowing in self-pity..
i need to be the cheerful person that i used to be!!and bring joy to everyone's life!!
but the question is:will i be given another chance??
wait for me!!give me some time to re-find myself..
but for now..i still have to the end of the year to be optimistic and cheerful..
jiayous!!
with love,peiying
not that everyone came to tok to me..thanks xiaohui for asking..but im ok..yeap..
im reallie ok..
yah so todae logic paper like that lors..so its like left 15mins to the end, hehs i was still saying that maybe i could leave after 1hour..wahaha but i realise hmm not that easy..haha..yeap as i was saying left 15mins that time,suddenly i realise that i dunno myself anymore..im not the peiying i used to be,before everything happened in 2004..wow that was such a long time ago..and recently too many things have happened,which just worsen everything..maybe when it just happened,i was in a slight depression..described as hiding in the room and not tokking to anyone..but as time goes by,as more pple lend their support,i began to walk out slowly and tok more..but even up to now,i still dun reallie like to tok that much..
i rmb last time pple confide in me and i just give suggestion or simply just lend a listening ear..but now,i keep wallowing in self pity..feeling depressed and sad over small nitty gritty things..where has the cheerful peiying gone to??
i noe that ive changed..for the worse..and i only realise it until now..ive become more insensitive, more selfish, inconsiderate..those of which that i used to detest pple with these qualities..but now that ive developed into such a horrible person, maybe its karma..
with the year coming to a close, a bad year indeed..deaths after deaths..maybe its reallie the time when pple grow up to the age that we have to face such harsh reality which we did not encounter when we were young..with the 5dboaters who died while in cambodia representing the country,the death toll has easily gone up to above 10..which was usually 0 or 1 per year to me..sighs..
family and friends are reallie impt to me..maybe its time that i start to reconnect with them and show more care and concern to make up the time when ive been ignorant and selfish and living in my own world,wallowing in self-pity..
i need to be the cheerful person that i used to be!!and bring joy to everyone's life!!
but the question is:will i be given another chance??
wait for me!!give me some time to re-find myself..
but for now..i still have to the end of the year to be optimistic and cheerful..
jiayous!!
with love,peiying
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