bad year

just as i was tokking to jas that day that 2007 is such a bad year..with so many things happening..

hmm let me see..i heard of 6 deaths..

quite a handful of break-ups..

and accidents..

sighs..i noe that its coming to an end of the year les..but its only november!!how can i tahan till january..and does it mean that as the new year comes, things will be better??or is it the time of the lifetime when pple have to face up to this kind of things..that happen naturally and daily..maybe i was too protected in my own little world..

and todae i just heard 2 bad news..hmm ok lar..1 quite serious..the other one i dunnoe the severity of it..but any case..badddddd

oh and another one last week..sighssssssss

and exams are coming..will i be able to concentrate and focus on studies??or rather my mind isnt doing wat its not supposed to be..i need pillar of strength..someone there..best if 24/7..but i noe this is impossible..even superman has to sleep..and err some bit of time to change in and out of his suit..even a human needs time for his own..so how can i ask for so much out of a person..

im scared of being alone..scared of my mind wandering abt..and think of bad things aka 胡思乱想..not much of stoning..i want company..i want friends..i want attention..i want good things to go everyone's way..i want a hug..one that comes from deep within ur heart..one filled with sincerity..and that u reallie mean it..

things are not looking good..i tot it was all over..and i was wrong..after the huge waves have subsided..the small waves will still keep continously wash up the shore..just as memories are being written on the sand,waves will wash everything away..and the only thing that is constantly reminding us is the presence of waves and the after effects it has caused..and that re-building wun be easy..

oh mans wat m i tokking abt..i somehow think that my english sucks..

everyone thinks that things are ok..but deep down they are not..

i think ive become a hermit..shutting myself out of many things..which last time i hold on to my heart so dearly..been losing touch with everyone and everything..wonder when was the last time someone confide in me..wonder when was the last time i was there when someone needed company..wonder when was the last time i hug someone when he/she needs it..

a cup of hot milk helps pple to sleep better..